Another new beginning . . .

So, as most of you know im going to be working at camp this summer.. This past weekend was memorial day family camp, so all of us program/support staff were supposed to be there for it to get things started (ideas for sr.high, prep for our jobs etc.) Second day there i started to feel not so good. not physically, but about the summer. so i decided to talk to Pete, our program director. i told him how i was feeling about everything.. long story short, i will no longer be working at Lebanon this summer, which makes me kind of sad on the inside. on the flip side of things, in my decision not to work at Lebanon, i'll instead be working at Cascades. The other camp i had been thinking about working at. My mind is at ease now, knowing that i will be where God wants me to be. I feel like a tool for leaving Pete without a jr staff supervisor, and i know he said its okay so long as its what God truly wants, but i still feel bad for backing out. cause that is one thing i really really REALLY hate doing. I know i dont like it when people do it to me.. so Pete if you ever read this, again, i'm incredibly sorry and sad that i won't be working under you this summer, you are AMAZING. So now my plan is looking like i'll be flying out on the 18th of june to seattle. get picked up by my bestest buddy jon, chill that night, then head to camp the next day! yet another adventure to add to my list :). jon said in one of his last blogs about either finding a place to work up in the north west or going back south.. up north? yes? is that what i hear? indubitably ;P.
 love you jon!

Just a thought

So, whilst creeping on fb, i was looking at people i don't know (honestly). All these really attractive girls are with these really fugly guys. That got me thinking... If girls go for ugly guys, how come i dont have a girl yet!? cause i know i'm not a looker by any means, and i've come to accept that. Seriously though, how come i dont have a girl if they go for the not good looking guys!? rage

When to give up

After talking with the guys on the man weekend about girls, i'm no longer sure what to think. we were talking about when we (guys) should move on from a girl. Hearing the other guys talk about stories of persistence and how it has paid off. . . now i dunno if i should give up.. part of me says yes, but at the same time i definitely dont want to. that brings into question whether thats what i should be doing or is that just me being desperate. i'm sure it's probably the latter, but i'd prefer not to think so negatively . i guess i'll pray about it and hope for a clear answer.

MAN weekend

Just got back yesterday afternoon from the best man weekend yet. Hiking, cliff jumping, urinating on trees and much more. yes, it was great. the weather was kind of crappy, but that didn't stop us from having a great time. So what if it's raining, i dont have actual swim trunks and the water is 40 some degrees, we're still jumping in! yeah, good times. Hopefully we'll do it again before the summer ends, cause it was awesome. Thursday camp starts, so sadly not too many posts will be posted throughout the summer. we'll see, i might be able to do some blogging on the weekends.

A long time ago...

In a church, not too far away... hahah no, jk, no starwars spoof. im done. but seriously, a long time ago in a church not too far away, AWANA happened haha. that was my first encounter with a rather loud child. i remember those first times we met i didn't like him. i thought he was a giant turd. back then i was really small physically and he was like six times bigger than me.. awana passed and vbs came along,, thats when i actually got to meet this guy.. yup, brett. thats his name. our moms were two of the main people in charge of vbs that year. so we got to spend some solid time together messing around the church. playing in the wheelchairs pretending they were tanks etc etc. yes, that was the start of our friendship. haha. there've been countless stories involving this character who's become one of my closest friends. Bun, stop right there and i'll bring back the sun.

My first day

Thinking back to 2008, my first day of camp as a staffer, i remember my parents dropping me off. I remember i got there late for some reason. I remember saying to my mom that i was nervous, and i wasnt sure if i really wanted to do it. she said if i really didnt want to i didnt have to. i remember thinking, that wouldn't be very adventurous of me so i told them i was gonna do it. i remember walking over to the staff that was now getting a tour of the camp. i knew 2 people so i immediately went to them, cause it felt safe, after the tour had ended and what not, those 2 people left to go do something and i was alone. freaked out 17 year old me didn't know what to do, then a tall handsome man came over and started talking to me. mm yes, finally someone new. i remember standing in the kitchen with this guy that i'd just met talking to a couple random girls. i remember just kind of standing there awkwardly. time for bed. great. good thing im with this tall handsome guy who talked to me otherwise i might lose it. hah long story short, that tall handsome man turned out to be one of my best friends ever. mr jon goheen. that summer was great. special place in my heart it will always have. hmm, i think i hear a mouse, maybe we should take out the trash ;P.

Thinking

Recently, whenever i start thinking about things that are actually serious, i get really really hot. like right now, im sitting here in shorts with no shirt and i'm like roasting, it succccks.

101

Sorry that took so long, i robbed the place, i didnt get us any slushies. hah.. i make myself laugh at jokes only i get. anyway. Lately i've been playing lots of oregon trail, cause its pretty fun.. so i showed my friend Jon where to download it, so he did. the turd killed me off! i couldnt believe it.. fording a 6 foot deep river, what're you thinking man!!! i drowned. tsk tsk.. camp starts soon, something like 23 days ?? yeaaah! part of me (the larger part) wants it to be right now. theres something deep inside that keeps wondering if i made the right decision though. buhh, i hate it. i just hope im ready for the summer, im pretty sure im not. well thats not entirely true.. but yeah, i still dont really get what im supposed to be doing. Bible studies?? okay. what i want the kids to learn this summer? I know what i want them to learn, but it seems so generic and i feel like they've probably already heard it a bunch of times.. we'll see i guess! im gonna go play some oregon trail and listen to music.