100th POST!!

THIS IS POST #100! yay. i was out getting us, victory slushies!

I love it

When people say they know me, and think they reeeeally know me. i have doubts about it. Not many people truly understand me.. excluding my family, i'd say maybe five or six people, actually understand me. people are taken by surprise and then don't know how to respond, no body panics when things go according to plan.. there's so much more i have to say, but i wont. it's late.. and i have yet to sleep because i keep thinking. something that i wish would stop. to a certain extent of course ;) dont wanna be brain dead.. or just dead. no, i'm not ready for that yet. i feel i'm starting to ramble now. . . i always say what i'm going to write, to make sure it sounds correct, and now i'm just talking about (other) things i'm thinking about.. have a good one all.

a simple repost

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Okay, this is a non-profit organization with all proceeds going to NightLight. NightLight is another non-profit that is based out of L.A., Atlanta, and Bangkok, they are helping to stop human trafficking. You can learn more about it by going to the heartsbeatlove fan page on facebook, or by looking up heartsbeatlove on myspace. The shirts are very cool, 2 v-necks and a crew neck are options. All american apparel shirts so they're quality items, not some cheap mass produced 10 for a $1 shirts. so, if you wanna get an awesome shirt and spread love and hope, you know how to do it :)  




(also note that ruggedly good looking model... ;D)

So help me....

So help me Jonathan Goheen.. if you betray me,, i will find you, kill you and EAT YOUR FIRST BORN CHILD!!! ... haha.

Understand me yet??

I'm thinking this is a no,, i love it when people dont pick up on "subtle" hints.. then again, maybe i'm the one thats not picking up on theirs.. so freaking confusing, but .. if it's supposed to work, it will. I hate being patient though, seriously no good at it :P.

Sleeping

Ugh, so after i finally fell asleep, i had horrible dreams. First time in a LONG time where i've had dreams that've legitimately scared me. It was  weird, looking back at it, i dunno why they were so scary, they were kind of retarded. but man, when i was in them, freakin nuts. That's pretty much it.

cant fall asleep, so i'll write here!

So, was talking with one of my closest friends this afternoon.. can you say prophecy!?! HA, if you're reading this and wondering, "what does he mean?" i'm about to tell you what i mean.. haha,  so we were talking about girls, cause thats what we do, and i was telling him about something someone had said. (in all seriousness) he told me i should probably just move on, and i was like, probably true. Here comes the kicker, , "unless she texted you at like *says a specific time* , then that means something". I was like, hmm, i wonder what time we texted. (you see where this is going?) sure enough, it was the time he'd said. so i showed him my phone as proof, then he was like OH MAN! ITS LIKE A PROPHECY! GO FOR HER!. then we had a good laugh about the whole thing. in all seriousness, if you're reading this and you know i'm talking about you, you know how i feel.. On a different note, listening to the band Young the Giant more,, seriously love them! i dunno if they have stuff on youtube, i actually have their cd, so let me know what you think of them, like'm, hate'm etc. If you're wondering what song to listen to, my top two are apartment and my body. at least at the moment, but the whole cd is pretty amazing to be honest. I think i'll make it a new thing to post new (to me) music on here regularly. I'll pitch 2 bands since i haven't posted on here in like 5 days.. Awolnation. I've only gotten the chance to listen to like one and a half songs.. but i really enjoyed the song 'sail'. lemme know what you think of them as well! Okay, now for another go at sleeping! *crosses fingers*

asdf

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams, yup, anyone know who wrote this? without looking ;). 

Last night

So, i always sleep with a bottle of water, cause i seem to get thirsty mid sleep. normally i dont really wake up when i take a drink, go to bed with a full bottle, wake up with about half gone.. well, last night i sort of woke up, and thought, well, i might as well take a drink, so i unscrew the cap, start to bring the bottle up to my face, and WOOSH, a gush of water came bursting forth and sprayed me all over. it scared the crap outta me. so i screwed the cap back on and started feeling around my bed to gauge how much water i had spilled. it was quite a bit.. on my pillow , on my sheets, and one of my blankets. i just laughed, rolled over, and fell asleep. . . yup, thats all i wanted to write. cause i thought it was humorous.

Mail,

I seriously hate getting mail, it rarely turns out to be good. seriously. i woke up to an envelope sitting on my key board, opened it up.. and i owe just under $13,600. how am i supposed to get that? i have absolutely no idea. bank loan? makes sense.. but seeing as i have no job, i feel like that'll be hard to obtain. get a job? no one is going to hire me for a month and a half.. even i'm not that stupid. (that wont keep me from looking, but you know what i'm saying). looking at what could happen, internships places, real jobs somewhere, but these wont happen til after summer. i mean, honestly it doesnt matter to me.. but i'm not the one who is owed 13 grand. *Shrug* so i guess prayer for my finances is something i should keep in my prayers more.. probably should've seen that one coming hah.